Home from school and in a happy mood!!…
- my mock Biology paper this morning went okay
- my headache is fiiinally starting to go away
- had a good meeting to arrange the flowers and table decorations for prom (y)
- I’ve just had a lovely lunch and I’m sat watching GBBO even though I’ve seen it all before ;))
- my daaahrling Mummy went food shopping for me and got everything on my list and even remembered the things that I forgot to put on there < 3 velvet crisps and chocolate spread ftw
- …had a conversation with myself on the bus (in my head obviously) <— everyone does this…and I’m starting to care less and less about being ill and skinny and placing my self-worth on my appearance and whether or not I have a thigh gap
- pleased that my GP appointment was cancelled because I don’t want my weigh-in when I’m on my period and when I’ve just gone back onto my supplements and am all bloated and constipated ://
Yeah…happy :D feels good <3
…and I hope you’re happy too - take care of yourself and love yourself and set out to do what you’re capable of!!
…oh, what a beautiful day!! The sun is shining and I’m happy :3
Had a mock paper in Biology this morning O_O which was alriiiight but I’m aware of what areas I need to focus on now. And I’m just back from an appointment with my dietician…I felt like I’d disappointed her to be honest as I’ve not been doing well this week :// but I’m getting straight on track as I don’t want to undo what I’ve already achieved <3
…a ~real~ smile :)) I is a-okay <3
Had a fabulous night at dance class - haven’t laughed so much in a while.
I’ve got a pretty busy week ahead of me!!…but I’m raring to go ;))
Hope you’re doing guuurd <3
Back from school and in a good mood :D
- Handed in my English coursework!!??!! So I’m done <3 I now have the whole of Monday off school and some Wednesday afternoons in addition to my normal free periods. YAY *waves arms*
- My care coordinator has agreed that, when my team has their little meeting on Friday, she will put forward the proposition of me continuing the group as well as starting work with her. She’ll give me a ring on Friday evening and let me know what the decision is.
- Luke is coming round to see me before he goes to his evening class and before I go to dance class <3
Yeah…
Hope you’re all having a good start to your week <3
…working towards body acceptance <3
and what better way to do that than wearing jazzy leggings :D
…basically sums up my mood!!
BUT ONLY I CAN CHEER THE F*CK UP?!…so I’m-a smiiiiiiiiile and fakeituntilImakeit (Y)
Sooo I really should do an update. I haven’t posted much personal stuff lately :S I had a bit of a rough time of it last week and wasn’t doing so well. If I’m honest I felt like a failure and that I wasn’t really deserving of being on here and that kind of silly stuff…
But I had my appointment with my dietician this morning and told her about how I’d really been struggling…so this week my goal is just to get my intake back up to how it was and then we’ll move forward from there. I’d not lost any weight which both relieves me and frustrates me…but it makes me realise that I was being rather stupid and that I just need to push through this <3
I’m arranging a review meeting with my treatment team and it’ll be the first time I’ve seen my care co-ordinator since Janurary which I’m really nervous about :S because I’m a much higher weight now and look really different…but I just need to rationalise and understand that she’s not judging me or thinking negatively because I’ve put on weight!! <— probably the opposite to be honest…
Other random stuff…
- I have to miss Biology this afternoon to do this stupid PE moderation day -.- I do not look forward to doing my solo dance in front of a room of teachers and examiners!!
- I’ve been suffering from major caffeine withdrawal as I didn’t have any Pepsi Max yesterday :O so I bought some on my way home from my appointment this morning ;P
- I’ve been eating a lot of apples lately
- I also bought a Malteaser chocolate bar so I can show my ED who is really the boss!!…
- I have a slight cold :’(( or maybe hayfever :S
- I need to arrange my flights!!…I’ll get onto that right away ;))
Hope you’re all doing fabuloooous!!…I mean I ~really~ do and if you are ever struggling or just want someone to talk or you even want to be friendies with me :3 then go ahead :D <3
…and if you actually read all of this then you’re just pure awesomeness and deserve an award (y)
Eeeh…not a great day ~feeling~wise and body image is poop but I’m just going along with it!!
I’m posting pictures of all mah food today :P aaaand I’m going to a party tonight dressed up as a sexy Hermione XD heh heh heh I shall post a photo, obviously.
Have a great weekend, guize <3
