Failed optimism ;)) dressing all summery…but no, we’re past the middle of May and my hands go blue and blotchy from the cold O_O not impressed, man!!
…date night with the Mother. Evening meal at ASK Italian and now off to see ‘The Great Gatsby’ :D
A is for afternoon *waves*
B is for boooobs :3 getting some cleavage going on again (y)
C is for careful…especially when I’m on the roads ;)) just had a driving lesson which went pretty well but the amount of times that I stalled O_O I need to get more clutch friendly!!
Sooo…we didn’t end up in the kitchen in my appointment which I was kind of relieved about. Apparently the kitchen equipment and utensils hadn’t arrived so it’ll have to wait for another time…and I’ve been signed up for this cooking group and meal planning/preparation-y group to get into cooking different things and using oils etc (will hopefully start within the month!!). But it was really really really good anyway. I told her how the last couple of weeks had been and how I want to start taking the next steps forward…we also spoke a ~lot~ about serving sizes and portions etc so I feel ready to tackle some challenges. And this week I’m going to be having a meal cooked by my parents!! I don’t know which day or what it’ll be…but yeah that’s this week’s challenge. Argh.
keepcoolkeepcool I really want to work towards widening the variety of foods that I have day-to-day aaaaand being able to eat the foods that my friends are having in different social situations!! Like pizza, chips, ice-cream, take-away stuff. I know it’s not ~healthy~ but I want to be able to allow myself to have it. Especially in time for going away to Tenerife!!…and I would luuuuurve to have Chinese food again - my friends really want me to go this amazing Chinese buffet place in town. I actually <3 Chinese food so this would be ah-may-zin’ :D
Onwards and upwards!! <3
Home from school and in a happy mood!!…
- my mock Biology paper this morning went okay
- my headache is fiiinally starting to go away
- had a good meeting to arrange the flowers and table decorations for prom (y)
- I’ve just had a lovely lunch and I’m sat watching GBBO even though I’ve seen it all before ;))
- my daaahrling Mummy went food shopping for me and got everything on my list and even remembered the things that I forgot to put on there < 3 velvet crisps and chocolate spread ftw
- …had a conversation with myself on the bus (in my head obviously) <— everyone does this…and I’m starting to care less and less about being ill and skinny and placing my self-worth on my appearance and whether or not I have a thigh gap
- pleased that my GP appointment was cancelled because I don’t want my weigh-in when I’m on my period and when I’ve just gone back onto my supplements and am all bloated and constipated ://
Yeah…happy :D feels good <3
…and I hope you’re happy too - take care of yourself and love yourself and set out to do what you’re capable of!!
…boo - studying :’(( but yay for food!!
…came home to exciting post!!
…oh, what a beautiful day!! The sun is shining and I’m happy :3
Had a mock paper in Biology this morning O_O which was alriiiight but I’m aware of what areas I need to focus on now. And I’m just back from an appointment with my dietician…I felt like I’d disappointed her to be honest as I’ve not been doing well this week :// but I’m getting straight on track as I don’t want to undo what I’ve already achieved <3
Yeah, I had a fun night!!
…about to go for my blood test. Yay O_O
…a ~real~ smile :)) I is a-okay <3
Had a fabulous night at dance class - haven’t laughed so much in a while.
I’ve got a pretty busy week ahead of me!!…but I’m raring to go ;))
Hope you’re doing guuurd <3
Back from school and in a good mood :D
- Handed in my English coursework!!??!! So I’m done <3 I now have the whole of Monday off school and some Wednesday afternoons in addition to my normal free periods. YAY *waves arms*
- My care coordinator has agreed that, when my team has their little meeting on Friday, she will put forward the proposition of me continuing the group as well as starting work with her. She’ll give me a ring on Friday evening and let me know what the decision is.
- Luke is coming round to see me before he goes to his evening class and before I go to dance class <3
Hope you’re all having a good start to your week <3
…working towards body acceptance <3
and what better way to do that than wearing jazzy leggings :D
…basically sums up my mood!!
BUT ONLY I CAN CHEER THE F*CK UP?!…so I’m-a smiiiiiiiiile and fakeituntilImakeit (Y)
Heading out to see the boyfriend and I’m also meeting his Grandma :S